Transqueer Nation

So I recently just joined a group called Transqueer nation.  There are forums and discussions that really help me out a lot...and I think it is even more awesome because it is not just for people who are trans or queer anyone can join up.

There are some people who like to say, "Well, why do you need your own site?  The more you talk about your differences the less accepting people are going to become."  Unfortunately I have actually heard that.  My response is:

1.  The site does not exclude anyone who wants to join as long as they aren't going to bash people on it.  
2. It isn't the fact that we are celebrating our differences that makes people less likely to be accepting, if anything it helps younger (or should I say newer) people in the trans community to accept who they are and realize that it is not wrong or a sin or anything else people use to make it seem like you are an inferior species because of something you cannot control!
3. I don't care about people who are not accepting.  They must have had such a horrible thing happen to them that they cannot just love and be loved!

2 Months on T

Hey everybody, so Christmas Eve was actually my two month mark of being on T.  I have noticed that my muscles have become more defined.  Now when I say that I don't mean I magically now have big muscles; all I mean is that now instead of all the fat you used to see on me there are slightly visible bits of muscle here and there.  My voice continues to get deeper.  It is really interesting to be able to sing songs that I thought I would always have to sing an octave higher.  At the same time the songs that I used to rock out to that were on the edge of my belt range don't really come out very well anymore.  I suppose that is a small price to pay in order to feel more myself!

Catch you guys soon.

Why use a packer?

For a transman they can use a packer or not, it is after all a very personal decision.

I use my packer when I know I am going to be meeting someone new or if I am going to some place new.  I wear one because; 1) Even if it is a small bulge it is much more likely that you will be able to pass 2) it really does change your stance and 3) of course there is always the accidental bumpage.

1. The first thing people notice when they meet someone new (especially someone who looks androgynous) is they look at your chest and your crotch.  If they see a flat chest but no bump or vice - versa it will still leave them confused and they will just assume whichever gender makes sense.  So if there are both you are more likely to pass as the desired male gender.
2. You don't really ever stand with your legs closed with something dangling between your legs.  You have a wider sitting position as well.  It helps you remember to take up space.  Men often take up more space then they need.  It just helps as a little reminder.
3. If I am in a club or dancing with someone or whatever the case may be and they brush up against my crotch without the packer that could be a bit awkward.  You know?

Well that will be all for now!  Thanks for reading!

Sex and Sex Drive

*Warning this section is going to be talking about sex and/or sex drive...if you do not wish to read it skip to the next section and if you don't care read on brave soldier!*

So I have now been on Testosterone for almost a month and a half and I must admit there is an increase in my sex drive.  Let me explain; when I was younger, and hell even over the summer, I was a prude.  I didn't want to talk about sex, I didn't want to think about sex and at least to the best of my knowledge I never had a wet dream so to speak.  I was much more consumed with all the romance and being the perfect person...you don't need sex to survive.  Don't get me wrong I am still concerned with all the romance, but I am certainly no longer a prude.  I will admit that sex is on the mind at least 10 times as often as it used to be (if not more).  I always used to say if someone I thought was attractive and they asked me to do it I would have said maybe after I buy you dinner, and we go on some dates, and then maybe I will serenade you...after all that sex might be an option.  Not that I would necessarily act on it, but all the romance can come after.  I'm not going to get in to all the nitty gritty details, but I figured I would at least give a little overview!

That's all for now!